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What a Wild Few Weeks It’s Been
Hey everyone. Thanks for checking in! It’s been a wild couple of weeks here. My mental state is up and down, but I...
Checking in From the Cold
Creative momentum has been slow lately, but I’m settling into a new rhythm—building out my studio space, exploring a granite-surf guitar sound, and prepping some 'Where’ve You Been?' tracks for live solo performance. The local music scene is thriving, and I’m excited to step into it. My album has organically reached over 4,200 streams, and I recently had a great interview on the Jaden Cornelious show (airing in March). Also, big news—'Where’ve You Been?' is coming to CD (and maybe vinyl)! If you want to support, check out Bandcamp, grab some merch, or just spread the love for indie music. 💜🎶
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Walking Along the Edge of the Event Horizon
Living with mental illness feels like standing at the edge of a black hole, caught between worlds. The pull of chaos and confusion is relentless, making it hard to reach out, to be heard, or to understand. But there’s a secret in the storm: observation. In those rare moments of calm, we find the strength to communicate, to connect, and to hold on.
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Downtime and Finding Sonic Spaces
Now that my album is out and I’ve had some time to find objectivity on the past year, I’ve slowed down, recharged, and...
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One Month In and One Year Later: A Journey Worth Celebrating
It was just about a year ago when I wrote a reflection on 2023, so I figured I’d do it again this year....
Embracing Imperfection: The Art of Being and Becoming
For most of my life, I stressed about proving myself and achieving perfection, but everything changed four years ago when I discovered the beauty of dilettantism—engaging in things out of love and curiosity rather than obligation. Experiences like Ayahuasca and mindfulness taught me to embrace imperfection and just be present. Now, I create without the pressure to excel and believe exploration is more valuable than mastery. It's about joy and freedom, not achievement.
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The Release after Release of ‘Where’ve You Been?’
Releasing Where've You Been? feels like setting loose a collection of bottled messages into the ocean—each one containing fragments of my life, some...
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Where’ve You Been? – Out Now!
It’s been a long road, with a few delays, but I’m finally here: my full-length album Where’ve You Been? is out now. Originally in my...
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Waking up in a quantum state
I felt transparent and ethereal, and so I reached out to the floor for the soft carpet and left my hand print in it. The carpet reminded me I was real and the hand print proved I was solid. I've done a ritual of this kind of thing for most of my life.
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Hypnosis as a child
Later that year -- the same year I had a spiritual awakening and fell profoundly in love -- it came up that my mother hypnotized me nightly from about 2 years old to the age of 9 or 10 or so.